are we nuts?!

Like I said before, God has really been working overtime on me and Jason. (and, from talking to others, He's been pretty busy elsewhere, too.) As I look back (which I don't recommend you do very often) over the past year or so, I remember going through some things that have really stunk. really stunk. I could just stop there and let it sink deep into the negative swamp, however, I can't. I have to go on.

I have given thanks for those really stinky things. (What?! Thankful for those things?!) Yep, they hurt. They hurt deeply. They broke me down. But, if I hadn't gone through those things, I wouldn't have grown. I wouldn't be any further along in my relationship with God if He would have just answered every prayer that I had prayed in the way and the time that I wanted Him to answer. It's amazing how much you learn from a "no" or a "wait." Or a "I will answer in the way that I see is best."

Yes, we're still waiting for breakthroughs on a couple of situations in life. No, life isn't as easy and breezy as I thought it might be. But, what if there have been breakthroughs in those situations that I just can't see right now. Who is to say that God hasn't answered the prayers that we have been praying for years. And, maybe, just maybe, I don't want life to be easy. You need traction to move, pressure to be shaped, and heat to grow. I'm not asking for more pressure, the pressure I have is just fine right now. :) But, without it, I wouldn't be so desperate for God.

So, I will not allow what appears to be God's silence to move me away from Him. I'll take it one step at a time, cause, so far, He's been with me every step. I thought that we would never make it through August with a second mortgage payment let alone September, but God has provided. I'm not sure what will happen, but I'll just keep moving forward.