So, NOW what are you working on?

I’m guessing that most people are aware of my addiction passion to creatively and constantly change my home and the things in it.  For several years, I had house projects out of necessity.  We were young.  We bought fixer-uppers.  We didn’t have the money to go buy the furnishings we wanted, so I figured out how to make do.

Now that we live in this home that was built for us, it’s really not about necessity…to make my home more livable.  It’s more about making me more bearable.  I guess you can say it’s how I deal.

For football season after football season, I would really struggle through the months of games.   Jason’s a coach, which means he is gone for a lot of hours. 

A lot. 

And, he’s not only the head football coach; he’s also the head track coach.

At an 8A school. 

Which leaves a lot of time I can either sit and feel sorry for myself as I wait for the moment he pulls into the driveway or embrace the way God wired me and be creative.

I’m still learning a balance.  I don’t want it to become an obsession that takes away from what I should be doing for my family.  If there’s ever a time I have to miss a game of Jaxon’s because I have a “project,” I know I’ve gone too far.  If I choose painting over hanging out with Ky for the only hour we have in the day, or maybe even the week, I need to re-evaluate.  And, frankly, I’d rather paint a piece of furniture than clean toilets. 

It’s hard to draw the line between contentment and expression.  I know that I’m extremely blessed with so many things I don’t deserve, so I’m constantly checking, “Am I doing this because I’m not grateful, or am I doing this because this soothes my soul?”  Believe me, I continuously ask God to open my eyes to know the difference.

I come from generations of creative women.  Unfortunately, in that same family line, come some women who have suffered from mental and emotional “stuff.”  Personally, I believe those two things can go hand in hand.  I believe that the women in my family couldn’t create, so they crashed.  Recently, after revealing another project I was planning to conquer, my mom lovingly said, “You’re crazy.”  I said, “No Mom, I create so I don’t go crazy.”

She nodded and said, “You’re right.”

Yes, I have quite the list of things I’d like to accomplish during my free time this football season.  And, I’m excited about getting after that list.  I’ve actually already checked off 2 things, and they turned out great!